Saturday, August 20, 2011

Not to Be.

If you know me at all, you know that I am a big ol' chicken most of the time.  I don't like roller coasters.  I don't like scary movies.  I don't really like surprises of any kind.  Spur-of-the-moment, I am not.

I keep waiting for my "wild phase of life" to begin.  You know--the skydiving, spontaneous trip to India, navel-piercing portion--but it just hasn't kicked in yet.  Maybe I'll get there once I'm a granny.  I imagine myself saying things like "I'd be happy to watch the grandbabies, but I have my belly dancing class that night" or "Sorry I can't help out with the ice cream social.  I'll be at Sturgis that weekend." much as I don't like roller coasters and surprises, it seems like that is all life has been offering up lately.  In my last post, I wrote about a job prospect.  To make a long story short:  I was offered the job, but then the school district was unwilling to wait for me to obtain temporary certification so they rescinded the job offer. 

I am alternately disappointed and relieved.

Disappointed because:  It would have been great to gain new experience in the field in which I studied (school psychology) and the additional income would have been great.

Relieved because:  I wasn't ready to jump into a new job at the same time that C started to school; The job was 40 miles away and that would have been hard on C, me, and my car; The job was in a different school district than the one C attends and the schedules were quite different--we weren't sure how we were going to make it work when C was out of school, etc.

So I am leaving the amusement park and reverting back to my original plan.  This fall I will enjoy some quiet time while J and C are at school, teach my classes part time, volunteer at C's school, take my certification exam and get certified, and keep an eye out for a job that will fit just right. 

It's out there, right?


  1. Making the right decision can be so hard sometimes. That's often how I've known I've done the right thing, by how excrutiatind it is to make. You'll find it when the time is right. If not, then this is what you're meant to be doing at this moment.

  2. I always fall back on- 'If it's meant to be...' There is something better ahead for you, I just can feel it. Meanwhile, you won't be rushed and stressed and that is a good thing.
    Thanks for sharing!

  3. Yep, it is! You'll have a great year and be able to enjoy the first year at school for your little one! I love being able to help out at their school.
    The right job will come along soon enough!! (In the can get a head start on those belly dancing lessons!) :)